34700 Valley Rd.
Oconomowoc, WI 53066
262-646-2382
Winter 2018: I have thought of quitting this blog since it seems superficial. The things I list as gratitudes are trivial and seem irrelevant, but I have decided to keep it up for a bit longer. Spring 2014: using my blog to say a few things I am grateful for each day and then sharing a word I pick out for the day and the definition. 2011-2013:A compilation of thoughts and feelings that overcome me through my struggle to surrender to God and give up the eating disorder way of life.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Popular Posts
-
Hello to all again! Wow 2 messages in one day after almost 2 years without blogging! Well I would like to ask all for prayers because I ju...
-
Feeling supported by my sister and friend! Time to relax Someone who cares enough to ask
-
A change of plans... My travel partners Willingness of others to go the extra mile even when it causes inconvenience Love from those arou...
-
Rocky Mountains and the sunshine Going to Mass Understanding and Compassion from friends -
34700 Valley Rd. Oconomowoc, WI 53066 262-646-2382
-
Above 60 degree weather Seeing the rocky mountain view at the breakfast table Compassion, love, and support
-
Nice chats with a lovely woman who shared the day with me (you may never know the gift you were M) Experimenting with the camera on my Mac ... -
Google VideoChat craziness with nieces and nephews Seeing baby Vivi on Google VideoChat Feeling a little more respect Word of they day: ...
-
Outdoor sunshine in Denver Video chat with my nieces and nephews Flexibility and patience of others
-
People who hope for me when I feel all hope is lost Having family and friends who reach out and sacrifice for me A special blessing and ...
7-14-11 A week later...
ReplyDeleteSo, here I am at Rogers, been here for a week today. Thankfully I am in the residential program now instead of the inpatient hospital setting. Things have been hard to say the least, somehow I think I have been winning the battle more than losing though, which is good. Although I have been doing well following the program rules mentally and emotionally it is terribly difficult. Most days I am overwhelmed by anxiety and fear of the healing and changing process. This is not fun and leaves me feeling disgusted inside and out due to the changes in my healing body. Knowing in my head that they are needed and good but not being able to appreciate it in my heart.
When I first got here there were issues with my insurance covering and because of this the treatment team transferred me to the residential program which is much cheaper than inpatient and insurance thankfully agreed to pay. I did have to pay some out of pocket expenses which was also difficult to hand over, but I guess if it is going to help me live life again than mentally I know you can't place a price on it, however, it is never easy to sacrifice such a large sum of $. Well I guess I should be grateful that I had the money to pay, because if I didn't than who knows where I would have ended up, since my family fearing for my life was not willing to settle for me coming home in such a state again. I guess I can't blame them but still it is hard to accept.
My time is very limited on the Internet so I will have to cut this off, but will try to add some notes from my journaling next time I get access to the net.
I am grateful for the continued prayers, support, encouragement, letters, and calls I receive. What a blessing to know so many wonderful people. I truly can't thank them or God enough for that gift