Again I ask for Prayer

Thank you all for blessing me with your love and prayers! I am so blessed to have so many amazing people holding me up in prayer and supporting me in my struggles

I would like to ask you for prayer for me to accept and work with God's will whatever the decision is that insurance makes tomorrow regarding my return to the Anna Westin House (AWH). If they do deny coverage I need the strength to accept and cooperate with God's will for whatever he has in store for me in this moment. If I can't go to AWH and Gods will is that He wants me to stay here at Abbott  and work with this program until He directs me somewhere else that I would accept His will and work what is being offered here. If it be something else he wants me to do or somewhere else that He wants me to go that I would see and know that clearly and be able to say "yes" to whatever that might be as well. 

Although I don't want to have to accept a different plan than AWH right now, I want to be able to accept that plan if it is not God's will. I think that I need grace to cooperate with God's will regardless of what I want or think is best for me, so above all I ask that you pray I have the grace to say "yes" no matter what He is asking of me! I think that this request for prayer is more important than the asking for the miracle of me being able to go back to AWH tomorrow. My plans are not God's and I think it might be an even bigger miracle for me to be able to accept, trust, and cooperate with God's plan no matter what it is. Thank you for being there to support me in this.

Thank you all again so so much for loving me in this and lifting my intentions to God!
You are all a blessing to me and I am praying for you and your families as well!

Short update- Denied!

Bad news insurance denied! I pray God works some good out of this! Don't know if I will be back at computer for longtime! Thanks all for prayers I pray God is working something bigger than I can imagine out of this!

Grace is FREE!

This scripture helps me see that God's grace is a gift, undeserved, that I can't do anything right to get it, that God gives the gift to me in spite of my wrongness. Grace it is FREE!!!!!
Romans 5:15-16
"But the free gift is not like the trespass. For if the many died through the one man’s trespass, much more surely have the grace of God and the free gift in the grace of the one man, Jesus Christ, abounded for the many. And the free gift is not like the effect of the one man’s sin. For the judgment following one trespass brought condemnation, but the free gift following many trespasses brings justification."

Lord I believe, help my unbelief!!!!

Pope Francis inspires me so much! He has such beautiful words of Mercy and Faith!


"Miracles happen. But prayer is needed! Prayer that is courageous, struggling and persevering, not prayer that is a mere formality." Pope Francis via twitter

Urgent Plea for Prayer!

Hello to all again!
Wow 2 messages in one day after almost 2 years without blogging!
Well I would like to ask all for prayers because I just received news that my insurance company doesn't want to cover my stay at the location I am at currently at! They believe I would recieve better care in a medical facility.
The care that I am receiving now is some of the best care I have ever received and that is why I chose to pursue coming to this program, however my insurance company is notorious for coming up with any excuse to avoid paying costs for treatment. Last time I was in treatment they decided to stop coverage because they determined it wasn't medically necessary, now they want to stop coverage of this facility because they are saying I need medical care that I am not getting. I am actually getting some of the best medical care in my treatment history but my insurance company will come up with any thing they can think of to argue with coverage.
Please pray that insurance continues coverage for the needed length of time for me to continue this healing process, I have only just begun. Right now they are only going to authorize coverage through the weekend and pending there decision on Monday I might have to leave. I am SO scared to face Monday and afraid I may have to leave. I want this help so badly and afraid I am not going to be able to utilize it.
Thank you all so much for your intercession and support!!!!!!!!!!!
Please keep me in prayer and for Mercy that the insurance denial of coverage is reversed and insurance agrees to continue coverage!!!!!!!!

Morning reading Psalm 139

"if I make my bed in the depths, you are there." vs 8
Even though I am self destructive God never leaves me in these times, he is always Loving me!
"For you created my inmost being" vs 13
This speaks to me showing me that God created me from the beginning before my heart became bad before I started sinning and choosing sin, now as I struggle with guilt for my willful sin, I feel comforted to know that God created my inmost parts pure.

My address for write now is:

Anne Bolle
Anna Westin House
1449 Cleveland Ave. North
St. Paul, MN

would love to get snail mail from you!!!!!!!!!

Hoping to stay in touch with all my friends and family! You all mean SO much to me!